im beginning to accept things as the way they are. or rather, accepting him as the way he is. dia cakap dengan perempuan lain, aku pura-pura tak perasan, dia usha awek lain aku buat-buat tak nampak, dia ajak sembang aku sembang balik, dia bagi aku air aku minum je, dia cari aku masa dia sunyi aku layan je.

im trying to make myself believe that he's nothing more than just a friend, like we were before. memang la rasa itu agak sakit, tapi what else can i do. i have pride too. i wont text him if he doesn't text me first, i wont start anything with him unless he starts it first. oh btw, it all starts with him initially. so he's the one who is suppose to end this game. well, only if it is to have a ending.

tadi ada aktiviti larian dalam college. he was there, and there was me talking to a guy who is a friend of him and also mine. tapi boleh pulak dia tiba-tiba datang and dgn selamber bgtau that guy yg i belong to him and that dia tak suka aku cakap dengan that guy. he blurted it out in front of that guy and i noticed the change in his face. but he said it dengan nada bergurau. i dont know if he really meant it, but i do hope so.

well im not that naive. i've been in many relationships with different kinds of guys before. and i know very well that guys know what girls like in a guy. so he's just acting sweet and all. thats all. and damn, i fall for it realising the truth. and thats just lame.

dia dah lama jugak la takde msg aku. Facebook pulak aku takde. the only chance we get to talk is when we're having lecture on weekdays. dia tak cari aku tu makne nye ada la awek lain yang hiburkan dia.

i started missing him already. *sigh

bye!